My time in Heaven continues to work its magic of transformation in my life. When the nurse rolled me into surgery, I was an atheist but I came out a true believer and spiritual seeker. It wasn’t easy to have my entire world-view turned upside down in such a short amount of time, though. A few friends bowed out of my life after I went public with what happened when I died in the operating room. I understood and allowed them to back away, wishing them love and peace. I did mourn those losses, even as the NDE brought new friends into my life.
Some part of me, the “old me”, kept trying to deny the experience altogether though, thinking that living the rest of my life might be easier if I just ignored being in Heaven. Fortunately for me this internal struggle lasted only a few months. I realized I was happier and more loving by accepting my NDE as real so I relaxed, allowing the experience to begin to transform my life.
In the first few months after my experience I did face challenges with daily life on Earth. I felt deeply disconnected from God, Mary, and the other spiritual beings who helped me in Heaven, but the most heart-rending struggles I faced were in seeing the sometimes-horrible ways we treat each other and this planet. The violence, hatred, drama, and simple struggles of daily living overwhelmed me at times. I’ll be honest – these struggles still pop up in my life but instead of allowing them to batter me, I choose to take a different vantage point. They are opportunities for growth for me, for other people, and for society as a whole. I have chosen to focus much of my personal spiritual practice, and many of my talks and workshops, on these societal pain points thus using them as tools for transformation.
My life makes more sense and flows more easily when I live the truths God, Mary, and the others gifted me with during my NDE. Living the gifts of those teachings from Heaven helps me stay calm, loving, centered, present, peace-filled, spiritual, and happy. The old me often wallowed in fear and anxiety, shunning love, connection, and community. The “me” that I am now is the “me” I was meant to be: loving, calm, fearless, peaceful, and connected, and all of it thanks to the lessons I learned in Heaven.
I spend much of my free time being of service to others. This was a rare occurrence for the pre-NDE Nancy but now, I feel a deep sense of joy when I give of my time and expertise. One of my current projects is growing food for my local food bank. This is a community and family affair – my daughter is involved, as are several families from the city in which we live. Not only are we serving others by helping to feed those facing economic challenges, but we’re creating a community “in spirit.”